mystery unfolding

the mystery is absolutely astonishing.
how we are created to experience and then forget,
to know and then not know is nothing short of incredible.
the beautiful moments I have known should have led me to a constant awareness of the divine by now.
to a constant awareness of the divine by now.
it would seem.
wouldn't you think?
the evidence is overwhelming.
love flowing into me.
making my fears feel so foolish time after time after time.
but I am an experiencing kind of a girl.
I get to learn love over and over again.
i need to be retrained constantly.
i am beginning to understand so much that love is,
not something I capture and file away.
it is certainly is not data to be stored
itโs a living emotional intelligence.
i am like a bucket,
a bucket that leaks,
there's a leak,
a hole in the bucket,
at almost all freeing turns
more often than not,
i look and discover the bottom is missing.
i throw think of throwing the bucket away
silly, you may say
why yes, I agree.
I agree now
now that i realize it
now that i see it
see it so vividly
with the eyes of my heart
when i see it transparently and an obvious way
all i am left with is the option to jump
or forget that my heart is a well of love
in the moment i recognize this
i remember once again the presence
i remember once again the presence
the presence
the presence
presence of grace,
grace all around me once again
well...what how do i put it in words
grace
well
itโs
amazing